Life was not as awesome as it appears to be

Today is a mixed bags day.

I should be happy because today I received His grace. He blessed me today.

But I am sad, blue, broken.

A relationship we took care of for more than a year is on the brink of extinction. Just because of a simple misunderstanding.

Sometimes I wish that we were simply back to older times when we barely knew each other. When it's a thrill to even catch a glimpse of one another. When a text message would put a huge smile on our faces. When holding hands would make our hearts race (though I still feel ALL those things until now). But maybe some people get used to those wonderful things and time will come when they'll find the sweetest gesture insignificant because it is expected.

Now, we argue about the smallest of things. Now, we can even make it through a day without making up. I'm afraid the short film,'Strangers, Again' is true.

Dati konting lambing lang, ayos na. Ngayon, konting kibot lang, away na.

Right now, I'm unsure of many things.
What does the future hold?
Will it matter to me?

It's difficult to let go of something that you've already built your world around. Just because of a stupid text message from an equally stupid person.

They say "to love is to let go". So, I'm letting you go.
I can't see myself in the future without you. But if this will ease your heart, so be it.

I'm sorry I wasn't able to reach your expectations.
I hope (and pray) that you'll find someone who'll make you happy and positive towards life just like how you made me feel.

I'm not even sure if this is the right place to put this. But I'm thinking "What the hell?".
I've nothing to lose now. Now that I've lost everything. Now that I've lost you.

You who have turned my life around. You whom I shared my life with for more than a year. You who put up with all of my b.s. in life. You who was always there for me.You who gave me the most wonderful love. And also you, who asked for an end.

This is for you, if you're reading this. I'm sorry I had to put this here. I don't know any other way to get this to you.

I'm sorry.
This is the last time you'll ever hear from me.
I'll miss you.

X

WELCOME

Hi.
I'm Alvin, I made this blog to keep track of my rather wonderful life. (And also partially because it's a requirement. Hehe.)

I would post things about everyday life. The little wonders of it.

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Hope you like the things that you find here. :)

Good day!